- coming clean
- April 1st, 2011
i've been thinking about this for a while now, ever since i started losing interest in the shinee fandom. it's no use to keep up this journal if your passion's gone, right? and i figured i might as well get it over with sooner than later.
so. hi. you probably don't know be by anything beyond this screenname. i'd be freaked out if you did, but that aside, i'm just a regular girl like most of you.
this journal was created out of jealousy. i was actually a big jongkey shipper back then (surprise, surprise, taste the delicious irony), but the crumbling of the fandom was too much for me. as a reaction, i lost faith in my otp and went to the opposite side to vent out all my frustrations against the ship i believed in the most. the ship that ultimately betrayed me.
it isn't until recently that i realize how much pain i've wrought. eventually, i realized that it wasn't jongkey that had betrayed me, but it was i who had betrayed the ship. each day that this journal is up, each new post that i make is the equivalent of stomping the already weakly floating ship further into the ocean depths of broken otps.
i know i may not be forgiven so easily, but i hope that this song is a start. i know that jongkey will never listen to it, but i hope that just posting this out on the internet for others to listen, knowing that i did something to atone for my sins, is enough for now.
thank you, and good day.